#really cool what theyve done with him yknow
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grant ward i hate you but i love you
#also brett did such an amazing job#when i say i love grant ward i mean it like from a character perspective#he is written so well#brett did an amazing job#really cool what theyve done with him yknow#because he starts off as your typical brooding tall guy no emotions blah blah#and you THINK ah yes this is grumpy meets sunshine and skye melts away all of this#protection and ice this handsome dark tall man has#and like you even see it happen before the twist#but then youre like onfg#and then you are kind of in the same#boat as skye yknow where we dont know actually what type of affection this man has for her#does he have any?#how genuine is he being?#hes got the strangest approach because you kind of see that by some weird design he is trying to make amends (or what he sees as amends in#his head) but it's also just cold and calculated and murder#but it isnt until skye shoots him and leaves him to die that he has this switch i think?#like idk i enjoy analysing him very interesting choices very cool twist
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YAYYY MISHA THEME!!!
MISHA 💖💓🩷❤���💕💖💓🩷💖❤️💖💓💓💖🩷💓
#i loevev them so much did you know that#currently saving up for him and it is HELL after spending it all on sparkel .so many quests and not enough timw .........#and . ouhhh havent had the chance to talk abt . shit what is it called . lemme go see real quick .#A CHILDS DREAM . yknow that one map with the text on the walls and the melted clocks and stuff .#that was done . SO incredibly well it makes me INSANE...........#so like . im 100.1% sure the speaker (who talks abt mikhail a lot) in that room is misha.#like that IS her voice right . im not going insane#its just . auuh... the dreams (or at least golden hour) in peacony are so childlike .... like . some of the puzzles are jigsaw puzzle ;#turn into a small cartoon character ; and help the cartoon character find his cartoon gears .#and then you get to clockie . who can only be seen by someone w a childs innoence (or smth around those lines)#and that misha can see clockie . which like . cool right ? yeab. UNTIL YOU GET TO A CHILDS DREAM ..#where theres something just ... sososo off .#and its ... its just gotta be misha . its gotta be . idk if theres anything outside of main story im missing (there probably is)#BUT . augh . auf even .#childs dream still has these childlike qualities to it (the paper birds; walking on walls) but just ... more warped#(the general atmosphere of the place; the monsters even .)#the music having a music box to make the tone of the song more distressing ... how its so much more smaller than golden hour ..#aughhhhhh ... its just such a good parallel..... i could talk abt it all day really .#anyways . i WAS going to tell u abt my misha theory (which may or may not be confirmed) bu t i got DISTRACTED.#uhh anyways . my theory is that misha is somehow trapped in peacony .#when misha goes onto the parlor car they mention that theyve never been outside of peacony before and that she can t stay for long .#which i imagine is very normal! BUT its this combined w her lock motif (pupils; most of the doors in childs dream) thag make me suspicious#i mentioned before that golden hour has a very childish quality to it. and that misha has that childish quality.#okay well . what if mishas being kept there so that golden hour can keep on being a dream for other people?#and so that would make golden hour mishas dream. (or part of his dream? could be more people the familys keeping)#and that would imply that childs dream is . well . mishas nightmare .#uhm . i think thats it ..? if i come up w anything else ill . ramble abt it somewhere . definitely not the most eloquent but#i hope i got the point across <33#i think its an understatement to say i love misha . i LOVE MISHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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dw for being honest. and yes I get the same ick feeling sometimes when reading certain idols nsfw posts but its still inruiging because in a way it reflect how he performs on stage. same i dont know if id get along with seungmin or lee know even as a scorpio i find them a bit too hit or miss like ur not quite sure what version u would get if u were going to meet them. but im sure theyre nice just to have a conversation with and i bet theyve got loads of thoughts on varying topics that they maybe are unable to discuss with others and such yh i love chans talent and his producing skills is amazing just maybe not in the sexual producing sense haha.
i also kinda get the feeling that he is much more comfortable or skilled with performing but u would kind of have to teach him things outside of what he does in the idol world cause i think idols in general rely so much on staff that they might not know much else besides what they do they might have an interest in something else but u would have to instruct them a lot bc in the idol world they kinda kept in their own bubble so to speak. for instance maybe cooking or yknow domestic stuff like that. i think the same about mingi and how he would suit someone whos wealthy yet skilled enough to take care of him.
if possible can u do only for the older members of skz would they want kids if so how many? cause I cant imagine basicslly having to lead 7 other kids then later on bangchan would still want his own but i still think he would be a great father maybe just not right now in this current time period cause he would still want to do his idol activities as long as he can.
Yeah i get what you mean with that hit or miss with lee know and Seungmin. Even tho Lee Knows my second bias after Changbin😂
And the thing about the idols needing teaching and assistance/guidances is actually very on point i have noticed that before in some idols. Not necessarily with skz but just in general. It must have its effect being closed up in a very limited world from your teen or even childhood years and having so much of your life being watched snd controlled and having things done and given to you etc. Im not necessarily getting that feeling with chan but im getting it a bit with Changbin, i think this may also be because of him growing so filthy rich, i remember him saying recently that he has NEVER went grocery shopping alone. Excuse me what?!🥲
Anyways here's the reading, it was very fun and interesting actually i love having a look into such topics🥰 i hope you enjoy it too.
Deck used is the 3rd Eye Tarot🌼🌸
*for entertainment purposes only!
Skz Hyung-Line do they want Kids? How many?
Chan - Knight of Cups, Page of Swords, The Empress, 5 of Pentacles
Wow ok so chan does want kids and he wants to have kids a lot and he wants many at that! His poor, poor wife. Im seeing like 4-5 little buggers😂
Lee Know - Page of Cups, The Hierophant, Ace of Wands
Lee know doesn't seem too eager and wants to keep him and his wife (partner) and their love young. The decision would be probably more in the hands of his wife (im just gonna use that as im seeing very clearly a woman being presented in the energy) as he doesn't mind having a childless mariage. As i said he would love having the extra time with his wife to keep themselves young and explore new hobbies and the world and themselves. But if it came up to it and his wife made a conscious choice of having a child they they would probably have just one.
Changbin - 3 of Pentacles, 8 of Wands
Changbin wants 3 and he wants them quick. I feel like he would love to have girls, probably all 3 of them being girls. I think he would find it really cool if they were triplets or something. Or their first being twins and the third little one being their little sis or brothers and so everyone of their children feels supported and protected among themselves too with the oldest ones having each other and the younger one having their sisters. I also get the feeling that his swimmers are also very potent🌝 so a pregnancy might come unexpected actually. He would love to keep it tho. He really really want to have children quick and fast (if its with the person he loves). Its like he can't wait to already settle down in his family life. I might just be picking on his soul tho, idk if his conscious self is currently on the same wavelenght😅 Oh and i think he would be a very devoted father and want to spend lots of time with his kids and teach them things, and go explore and have adventures with them and have them teach him new things like slang, and what happened at school and how Amanda got pink highlights or whatever😂 like middle school tea yk. He would love that!
Hyunjin - 6 of Cups, Ace of Pentacles
For hyunjin im seeing just one kid. He doesn't seem too eager for kids but he's open to it and sees it as something thats just part of life and being an adult. I think he would be good with his child too, but it will be more of a calmer dynamic and i think it might be a bit of a struggle to actually get that kid. Maybe it would be a while or the acquiring of the child will be a long and tiring process, like maybe something like adoption. I actually see him with an older child too, like him giving something to an older child thats already like 3-7ish. And i also feel the vibe of him being alone with that kid, as in his partner isn't there with him. Kind of explains the calm, devote of excitement energy. I don't feel very comfortable getting into that to be honest so im just gonna leave it as it is and not get any confirmation on anything.
#bang chan#chan#skz#stray kids#changbin#seo changbin#hyunjin#lee know#lee minho#tarot reading#children#imagine#reaction#headcanon
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hey, cas
so, i kind of wanted to rant a bit, but theres a few things in here i know could get people riled up so honestly im a little nervous sharing this. i also want to preface it by saying that i am NOT hating on any fics i name here, they are just well-known examples and fics that the fandom hold close
as a fic writer myself, i love adding my own little headcanons to characters. sometimes theyre hcs ive seen from someone else and loved, and other times ive thought of them myself. in the latter case, ill often then see that someone else thought of it too, which is really cool!
but then there comes the hcs that people see and think "oh! thats from x fic!" for example, if you bring up dyslexic remus to most marauders fans, theyre gonna talk about atyd. ive never read the fic myself, its not my taste, but ive heard a lot of things about it and it does honestly sound like a great fic so genuinely no hate towards it. but i hc remus as dyslexic and i did so before learning that atyd has dyslexic remus, and any time i consider putting that hc into one of my fics all i can think about is that people will see it and talk about atyd. maybe theyll say i was copying or stole the idea. maybe theyll compare the two and decide the way i depict it isnt as good. maybe ill end up accidentally using a similar or the same thing for remus to have aiding him, for example a spell or something one of his friends do, and ill be told im plagiarising, and i absolutely hate that.
another example is best friends brother. its such a well known fic in the fandom that anyone who writes anything similar is going to be compared to it. or crimson rivers; anyone who writes a hunger games au (even if its not even remotely similar to cr) is going to be told theyre trying to copy. i love both bfb and cr but i wish people could accept that two writers can have the same idea without copying or trying to recreate/steal it
one of my current ongoing fics has the same central trope as another big fic in the fandom (i dont want to reveal which, because i dont want to risk being de-anoned) and i went out of my way to avoid reading the big fandom fic until ive finished writing my own because im so terrified that if theres even a single vague similarity i might get called out and told im copying
i want to say im just being paranoid, but i cant. i hate that the fandom has come to the point where authors have to bring something out that absolutely noone has ever done before ever just so that they dont get told theyve taken the idea from someone else. even if they had, its perfectly normal and fine to be inspired by an idea to make it your own! obviously actual plagiarism is not okay and should be called out, but theres a difference between plagiarism and just having a similar idea or hc
going back to my original point (because this was where my frustrations with this started) i hate that dyslexic remus will always be seen as an atyd thing, when it isnt. again, no hate to the fic or the author, this isnt an attack on them at all, its just unfortunate that the fandom has kind of taken it so much as canon that anything will always be compared to it, if that makes sense?
tldr: let me have dyslexic remus without telling me im copying atyd! let me have him use magic or have his friends do little things to help him without telling me i stole it from atyd!
sorry about that cas haha, i realise its a bit long. it just really really frustrates me to no end, yknow?
Hi!
Yes, I can definitely see what you're saying. I think if something is inspired by another fic (i.e. you read CR and then you're like...oh, I wanna write a Hunger Games AU) it's good to give credit where it's due by saying "inspired by x." But in a fandom with thousands of fics, the same ideas are bound to come up even without having read other fics. If people accuse you of copying and you genuinely haven't, I would just let them yell. People are always going to have negative things to say, you know?
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i woke up from my deep new years slumber this morning and checked ao3 for anything to feed me. what i was met with was a full course meal in the form of wilt & scatter updating. i was jolly beyond words. if i hadnt just woke up i would have jumped around my room and danced. happy new year
I LOVE EVERYTHING THIS CHAPTER IMPLIES ABOUT ADAMS CHARACTER!!!!!! HE TOO IS DEFECTING, BUT NOT OUT OF A "CHANGE OF HEART" LIKE BLAKE, BUT BY STAYING TRUE TO HIS ORIGINAL MOTIVE OF PROTECTING THE FAUNUS!!!!!!!!!! tell me if im wrong but IM PRETTY SURE ADAM'S HELPING RUBY BUST THESE OPERATIONS CUS THEYRE ONLY GOING TO JAIL... im sure jail is easy for someone like adam to break out of, he can lead a charge to save some imprisoned faunus. i feel like its one of those situations where theyre better off in jail for now, because its either jail or......... Ms. C the LandLord. worst landlord EVER . IF IM WRONG THEN IM SPEAKING OUT OF MY ASS, BUT GOD I LOVE IT!!!!!! adam queuing ruby in on the smuggling... theyve become a well oiled machine if theyve done this like 5 times by now. not to mention i love the suspicion there is on ruby now. how does she know this? weiss is right, how do you get Sources (tm) as a first year from beacon that grew up on an island as what i can only assume is a farmhand outside of huntress training (i mean seriously!!! thats a farm!!! im sure they have livestock just over the fence that yang and ruby took care of!)
love blake here. she feels very volume 1 in the best way possible. shes abrasive in her own cool way and very passionate. her blowing the team off out of anger is so good. i want a scene where both blake and ruby see adam and recognize him and blake turns around and strangles ruby while demanding answers of "HOW DO YOU KNOW HIM??? HOW??? HUH???" . hell, if ruby is communicating with adam through texts and calls, im sure blake may want to follow ruby when she dips off to take An Important Phone Call from her Friend From Signal. or however they do it. SUSPICIOUS BLAKE FOR THE WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!
a small tidbit but i love the idea that ruby smells very obviously like roses, especially to faunus who have better senses of smell than humans. i always imagined adam taking notice and being like "get a new shampoo or something that one smells really strong" and rubys like "i use a 3 in 1 theres no scent" . the scent thing is an interesting way to .. kind of nerf her? shes very good at espionage due to her semblance, it almost looks like teleportation with how quick she can move, so having her opponents be able to smell her is really interesting.
also.. glad the dust robberies are leading up to something... it feels like it at least... cussssss............ mountain glen is looking like the next smuggling spot, considering all the supplies that make it out of vale are heading there. and im sure, maybe, in this AU, mountain glen could quickly snowball into ruining something else . a uh. certain festival. yknow. ohgohgohgohgohgoghoghorrrrrr
Replying late (happy new year!) but hell yeah you got Adam's motivation exactly right!! Some people were struggling with it lol. I'm guessing they don't know me / haven't read my other stuff so they're thinking it's the usual "Adam's a shady one-dimensional bad guy" beat.
Mountain Glenn is hmmm let's say...important. In the grand scheme of this fic. And Adam & Ruby's relationship.
#astronnova#unofficial adam answers#wilt and scatter spoilers#wilt and scatter reviews#your enthusiasm for this fic is so spectacularly infectious#...is it 'astro nova' or 'astron nova'?
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g:L S2 Finale Liveblog
This one is even more incoherent than the last, im so sorry but i couldn’t be bothered LOL:
Genlock finale liveblog lets goooo
watching this in a dark room w/ my laptp super close is prbs not great w the seizure warnin g but whatever
MIgas in the tank- wait did i even watch last week when did mgias get in a tank
Yaz crying is a nice detail, but still mad they fucked up her backstory
GD THIS IS 31 MINUTES FUCK I CANT DEAL WITH THIS
why did this have to become about climate change
im sorry i hate baby caliban but i also LOVE HIM
Cammie voring everyone
Val is the real MVP f this season lets be real theyve done SO MUCH to support the team
GOD I HATE BROTHER TATE SO MUCH I HATE EVERYONE SO MUCH
Dr.Jha doing the most work
Not sure how i feel about cammie forcibly asceding everyone
Okay i keep clicking out of the video bc im so distracted but thats the point im at, i like cammie giving chase the new weapons but it also feels like im watching a video game
rip henry is dEAD
i dont have a clue whats happening why are we fighting nemesi, why are we fighting the holon frames, i come back to this show every week and forget what happened because i never feel invested enough to retain shit
like whats the point of this fight. What's the emotional investment, Nemesis isn't even someone worth fighting now, there's no combat teamwork in the fights,its just Chase while everyone else- whatever i cant be bothered
Wow cool more blood and thank GOD sinclair is clothed again i did not like seeing his almost dick last episode
Okay I spoke too soon Cammie in Nemsis' head that's cool
idk if u cant recode him just kill him
Wow cammie so you're plan is ruined
WHAT IS THIS MUSIC????? i kind of like it
is sinclair going to kill marin oh my god
I KNEW HOLCROFT TOOK UNLOCK
What is unlock again, using- YOURE GOING TO PAYWALL SURVIVE
SINCLAIR?qel q' q w qw rk
sorry marin i think ur about to die-
plz dont make me watch her die or ill lose it i dont need that gore- wow great cant believe they did that to me
WHAT THE FUCK
guess sinclair isnt on our side- oh we've lost the holon frames, what are we going to like massive link into them or something
no not the fucking monster face
WHY IS IT COUGHING BLOOD NONE OF THIS IS NECESSARY????
Cammie is just like tinkerbell now tbh
THE HOLON FRAME IS ASCENDING?????? WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING
i kind of had a feeling we would fuse- OH ITS EATING THEM
ive never watched eva but this feels like theyre trying for some big philosophical anime ending plot yknow like- why is this show so horror focused now geez
Dr. Jha SUPPORTING HER EX YEAH LETS GO WELLER CONTENT
she got the KOALA!!!!!!!!!!!!
wAIT WHY IS THIS LITERALLY THAT POST ABOUT HOW FUNNY IT IS WHEN SOMEONE IS POINTING A GUN DOWN AT YOU I SAW TODAY????
Was going to say "oh so we're steven universe fusing like i thought" but then i remembered s1's mindshare was basically that too-
Dr. Jha did you really make things better or worse and also I need to know if Kazu is permanently dead or if s3 (if we get it) will sinclair fill the void
How can Tate see this and be like "yes this is what god wants"
At least in s1 i could follow the tech talk but this season its ALL going over my head
oh so we are ALL nemesis now
watching these slow laser bullets is making me miss the cool action fast paced fight of s1 where we first fought nemmy, those camera angles how i miss u
brother tate PERISH
okay so the writers definitely just watched attack on titan before deciding to write this season i guess
HI SINCLAIR
wow call back to yaz's dream in s1 i was about to say and then we really did just become big giant robot
this sequence is cool ill give it that
KAZU HELMENT IM GOING TO CRY!!!! AND THE GUTIAR THAT'S HIS THEME IM GOING TO CRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay s2 hbo you got me there
primal i think u will like this robot a lot maybe s2 is worth saving
*sees the twilight monster again* okay nevermind
Wait that happened so fast I didn't even realize they won i thought we died
CHASE OUT OF THE TANK???!!
Can he exist out of the tank- OH we need to absorb him thats why
2 days later... play that song do it i know u want to
okay baby caliban u have my heart
guess we are NEVER fixing the issues with yaz's past
So Holcroft is the villain of next season
AW CUTE YAZ AND VAL WIN!!!!
So team is splitting up, i HATE this found family is broken up
I like that they didn't force Dri to ascend and we're addressing her trauma now that shit has calmed down and she has to just sit with it
yo what is sinclair up to or is that just the end
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if it's not too much to write, how about All even numbers for the OC asks for either character of your choice! or both if you're feelin wild whatever works : ]
wheezes this took so long but im finally done holy shit
2. Do they have any titles? How did they get them?
Echo doesn’t have any official titles, and isn’t really planning on getting any, unless Champion of Sune counts?
4. What is their relationship with their parents? What’s a good and bad memory with them? Did they know both parents?
Echo has a very good relationship with her moms! To their knowledge, things were a bit tense after leaving Ivydome, but plenty of letters and visiting when they could helped with smoothing over their relationship. A good memory would be when her moms taught Echo how to bake! They can really only bake cupcakes and cookies but theyre like. Hella good ones. They dont really have any bad memories with/of their parents, since like. They will forcibly forget or repress anything that upsets them, as long as it only affected them. If the memory is something bad that affected others it will linger for however long Echo deems necessary(read: an extremely long time)
6. What were they like at school? Did they enjoy it? Did they finish? What level of higher education did they reach? What subjects did they enjoy? Which did they hate?
They were there and graduated fantasy high school what more do you want from them jkdxxjndk. They started working at the local sweets shop after school, so no higher level of education here! They like history a bit, but that’s about it tbh!
8. Did they have pets as a child? Do they have pets as an adult? Do they like animals?
Yes! Echo had a pet cat back at Ivydome with her moms, and before the campaign she didn’t really have the money to keep another, so they settled for feeding and playing with the stray cats in Summervale.
10. Do they like children? Do children like them? Do they have or want any children? What would they be like as a parent? Or as a godparent/babysitter/ect?
Hmmm, Echo doesn’t mind children?? but there’s only so long they can be around them before she gets overwhelmed. Children like them well enough since Echo is always up for playing songs or messing around with cantrips. Echo would be the fun parent/godparent/babysitter, but. Please dont make them look after children they dont want any.
12. What is their favourite food?
Give my child spicy noodles or give him death
14. Do they have any specific memories of food/a restaurant/meal?
Their first cake made without supervision was. A disaster to put it lightly since someone was feeling ambitious.(it turned out like rubber and after that he was too flustered n frustrated to focus so everything else turned out badly too) So they dont bother with that anymore! Cake mistakes who i dont know her sdkjjkdbs. So half the time they pass by anything with some type of airy sponge cake they cringe lololol
16. Do they collect anything? What do they do with it? Where do they keep it?
She had a rock and shiny things collection back at Summervale! They’re mostly for decoration, although some with certain textures are used for stimming. Some rocks are kept on shelves, but most are stored in cool jars to save space
18. What’s their favourite genre of: books, music, tv shows, films, video games and anything else
Echo is a sucker for romance novels and fun, upbeat music! Idk if video games, films, or video games exist in-universe, but if they did, they’d like dramas and baking shows, rpgs, and more character focused games like nitw
20. Do they like musicals? Music in general? What do they do when they’re favourite song comes?
They love music, and they’d like musicals too! They will grab their lute and play along if their favorite song came on, and if nobody was around then maybe they’d sing too. Maybe.
22. What are their favourite insults to use? What do they insult people for? Or do they prefer to bitch behind someone’s back?
tbh their go-to insult is calling someone a prick or a bastard, and it’s usually for whenever someone’s done something particularly scummy. Or if someone is just. The Absolute Worst. It’s a leftover habit from when they used to live in Ivydome, but Echo usually sticks to talking shit when the target is. Very far away/not in the area.
24. What is their sleeping pattern like? Do they snore? What do they like to sleep on? A soft or hard mattress?
They try and get around six hours, to varying success, and to their knowledge they dont snore! Echo loves soft things and would prefer to sleep on a soft mattress with So Many blankets and pillows and maybe a cuddle buddy
26. How do they act when they’re happy? Do they sing? Dance? Hum? Or do they hide their emotions?
Fun fact echo does a tounge blep when she’s happy!! They tend to do lil happy claps and bounce up and down in place when they’re really excited, but when it’s a more calm-type of happy he purrs loudly and smiles a lot more than usual!
28. What is their biggest fear? What in general scares them? How do they act when they’re scared?
He’s claustrophobic and is terrified of being alone again or having to leave people behind even when the situation calls for it. So like. He aint copin too well after the last session! They get very flustered and panicked and freeze when theyre scared
30. Do they exercise? Regularly? Or only when forced? What do they act like pre-work out and post-work out?
Does going on champion quests and running from his problems count as exercise or???
32. What do they dress like? What sorta shops do they buy clothes from? Do they wear the fashion that they like? What do they wear to sleep? Do they wear makeup? What’s their hair like?
Crop tops with long sleeves, shorts, and boots make up most of their wardrobe and they love it. Theyd go to like the fantasy equivalent of marshalls i think? Somewhere with good deals and a lot of options. Overlarge shirts, tank top crop tops, and more shorts make up their pjs. They dont really wear makeup, mostly bc they touch their face a lot and it feels weird the whole time, but they wouldnt be opposed to wear a lil bit every now and then! Their hair is floofy and a bit of a controlled mess since they cut it themselves
34. What is their body type? How tall are they? Do they like their body?
Echo is 5’9”/ 175.26 cm! Theyre on the average side i think? Like theyre not super skinny but not fat either so just. Avergae. And yeah, Echo likes their body, theyre so bright! And their horns are so cute and having a tail is very handy and claw maintenance can be a bit of a pain but like. Aesthetic am i right folks
36. What are they good at? What hobbies do they like? Can they sing?
Hes good at playing the lute and generally being very cute and giving out good vibes, and he likes baking and playing music! They can sing, but really only do that when theyre playing their lute ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
38. What do they admire in others? What talents do they wish they had?
Echo admires passion and creativity the most, and dont let anyone from the party know but he wishes he could be just. A bit smarter and know what to say + ask. Theyd also really like to be able to make a decent genoise sponge too like theyre not picky
40. Do they like energy drinks? Coffee? Sugary food? Or can they naturally stay awake and alert?
Theyre a tea drinker all the way, and arent the biggest fan of sweet things. He used to use more tart or mellow flavors when baking. They def arent alert after being tired for a while, and will space out a bit
42. What are their goals? What would they sacrifice anything for? What is their secret ambition?
No secret ambitions here, Echo is an open book(unless they roll high on deception dvdjxb)! Becoming Sune’s champion, making a decent sponge cake, and protecting his friends with his life/in any way they can are all their current goals. Echo doesn’t care too much if they get hurt, so physical well-being and maybe mental are things they wouldn't mind sacrificing, but as a whole they don’t really want to think about what they’d have to give up. He’ll burn that bridge when he gets to it.
44. What is their favourite season? Type of weather? Are they good in the cold or the heat? What weather do they complain in the most?
If its cold, wet, or humid echo is not a happy camper lol. They prefer summer and the beginning of fall the most, and sunny days with lots of puffy white clouds are the best! They think its fun watching the clouds shadows on the ground. They’re better in hot weather than cold, since clothes for that type of weather are easier to dress for and they dont have to account for their tail or horns as much
46. Do they make a good first impression? Does their first impression reflect them accurately? How do they introduce themselves?
God i hope they make a good first impression im dying over here xjkxdk but honestly it depends! They try to make a good first impression and i think they usually do? But if theyve just finished with a job w the gang or theyre just. So tired they wont really introduce themselves at all. Its pretty accurate of how they are, and their go-to greeting is “I’m Echo Barquiel, a pleasure to meet you dearie~”
48. Do they enjoy any parties? If so what kind? Do they organise the party or just turn up? How do they act? What if they didn’t want to go but were dragged along by a friend?
In theory they’d like parties but being around so many people with that much noise for an unknown amount of time would not be. Ideal so smaller get-togethers with friends would be the most enjoyable! Echo doesnt really have the uh, space to host anything so theyd just turn up to other’s parties. Theyd be in a constant state of switching between ‘holy shit im so gay’ and ‘oh my god theres so many people/internal screaming’. If they were dragged to a party, theyd mingle for a leelte bit before stepping out
50. If they could only take one bag of stuff somewhere with them: what would they pack? What do they consider their essentials?
A bedroll, waterskin, food supplies, rope, knives, a lute, matches, money- yknow regular survival stuff!
#the sylph speaks#echo barquiel#sweet jesus how long ago did you send this???#i have no idea#mxbuccellati#does the readmore even work on mobile?? rip mobile users if it doesnt i guess#long post
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Hey Nyo sorry to be bothering you but I'm fairly new to this fandom and have read through what there is of translated manga and I was kinda curious as to why Emperor x Gloves works? I really find them cute but how would they find themselves together or even getting into a relationship? Is it their personalities? Really wanna hear your thoughts I don't think anyone else has dwelve into how they would get together (at least from what I've seen) ^^
Oh! First of all welcome to the fandom, hope you enjoy your stay buddy!
Warning, lotsa rambling:!
To answer your question, oooh boi! First lets look at the times theyve met and interacted:
-They met on the mountain before, had a convo, Emperor gave him his dualies (yes, I know, he mostly gave it to him to mess with him in their battle but yknow.)
-Later in the tournament, Emp defeated him and was harsh, Gloves was shook and upset
-Then later again during Salmon Run.
-Durin the new chapters we see them at the same location- doesnt rlly mean anything, but who knows! Maybe they talked!
Okay so, its clearly obvious Gloves sees Emp as an idol and respects him, when he met him on the mountain he was totally surprised and starstruck. My personal headcanon is that he had a lil celebrity crush on him at that time- which just got worse after receiving a new trendy weapon from Emperor. So yeah, I assume til the tournament he was super excited and looked forward to battling Emp (in the mountain chapter we saw Emp being awfully polite, not showing much ego and gifting him a new weapon). After Emp defeated Gloves, we see him completely shocked on the ground,
I dont think I have to explain this scene, but Gloves had to realise his idol wasnt as nice and friendly as he thought. Emp was the complete opposite of the person Gloves met on the mountain (which mightve also been for show, since that was a public tv streamed battle and all that, who knows.)
So after that, Gloves was probably disappointed and upset as fuck, but determined to get better. Some say Gloves hated Emp after that but, ehhh I dont think so. I feel like, even tho he was hurt by his words, they also motivated him to become a better player yknow? If he really hated him, he wouldve thrown away the dualies he gave him, or at least said some sort of bad thing about him. Which he didnt.
Bla bla bla, stuff happens, bla bla Blue defeated Team Emp, Gloves and everyone else watched. Emp went to become a better King aaand,
now the Salmon stuff happens, when they meet again, months after the tournament (talking bout the tournament where emp defeated gloves) and dualie event happened,
We see them fighting and working together,
We see them being dorky,
and most importantly, this scene:
He complimented him, and Gloves seemed to appreciate it quite a lot, he sees it as an honour to receive a compliment from him. Which means, Gloves still respects him, still sees him as someone important, and clearly doesnt dislike him.
All of that makes a decent amount of chemistry already, everything that follows after this is pure imagination and headcanons!
Sooo, their personalities! I love them! I personally think they work together perfectly,
you got this rich, cocky, (pretty clueless) famous dude with a huge ego, and a trend seeking, energetic and dorky cool kid. What more could you ask for lmao.
Ahem anyways, I personally like to imagine Gloves managed to befriend Emp! Whether its through convos during locations they all met at, or somewhere else. They have the usual convo stuff and learn a lil more bout each other, get closer over time, meet up a few times and do fun stuff! Like, turfing, watching a movie, playing video games!
(We see Emp being completely clueless when it comes to basically anything outside of turf, he doesnt even know how washing machines work. So Id like to think Gloves shows him the basics of life lmao. I personally rped this with a friend, it was great! Gloves showed Emp pop tarts ksksks.)
Anyways! Then the usual developing feeelings happeensss,
and theres lotsa awkward momentssss, and theyre both completely obliviouss
and then their first date happensss, and then,
gay happens.
Okay Im so sorry I got lazy at the end but like I said, everything that happens after the Salmon event is interpretation, and you can imagine that however you like! I just love the idea of Gloves showing Emp all this basic life stuff he never experienced, like fucking taking him to Mc Donalds or something, just, showing him fun stuff yknow! Helping him become a better person! AAaa im shit at explaining but i hope you somehow understand why I love these two so much lmao. If I could Id show yall the amazing rps ive done that are full of lovely development of those two, but yknow, private stuuufff!
But yeahHhh, rambling over- this is super long im so sorry!
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endgame spoilers i watched it a couple weeks ago here are my complaints lol
nebula and gamora...... were done so dirty lmao....... i am not surprised, i knew this was gonna happen but still.
i mean i really liked nebula in endgame! i love seeing how far she’s come since gotg! she played a larger role in this film than i was expecting and that was nice!
i just disliked the fact that she ends up killing her past self?? it’s such an example of the problem with these big ensemble films... other characters’ arcs take precedence over other characters and so like while killing her past self makes sense for the overall narrative... it doesnt make sense for nebula’s character arc....
or like how since this the last film in which we’ll be seeing all original avengers together, of course it’s them that are prioritized over other characters which means Of Course it’s tony that ultimately defeats thanos even tho really it makes more sense for thanos to be defeated by nebula and gamora and that would’ve been a rly big development in their arcs but guess not! i guess! no can do!
they tried to make the tony vs thanos conflict this Big Dramatic Thing but in reality it is sooooo impersonal....... which makes the conflict and the resolution of that conflict just not very interesting to me...
like imagine if the gotg films were it’s own franchise. no other marvel movies exist, it’s not connected to anything else, it is it’s own thing. then that would mean the gotg franchise has thanos for itself and those films would be leading up to the defeat of thanos which can be fulfilled by nebula and gamora because theyre protagonists of these films. imagine how satisfying that wouldve been!! like gotg has always focused on themes of family! that franchise ending with nebula and gamora defeating their abusive adoptive father with the help of their new found family wouldve been so emotionally impactful and satisfying!
but nnnoooo instead we get tony vs thanos. they don’t even know each other. they’re just that one guy that got in the way of their desires. just an obstacle. that connection is not deep enough to be interesting
ok i went off on a tangent there but back to nebula killing her past self.... Why. we know that given time, the nebula that we see can change for the better! we know bc we see that nebula right there! our nebula! but nooope instead of getting a powerful scene about nebula literally staring her trauma right in the face and how she feels about that now that she’s grown so much...... she just kills her? i mean she tries to appeal to her? but this past nebula isnt given the time she needs to grow! she’s just killed off with 0 compassion......... and it’s such... a sad and unsatisfying development... like there’s a difference between “letting the past die” and killing your past traumatized self.... like if her past self deserves to die and isnt worthy of compassion then that just goes against our nebula’s entire existence? she is the person she is in the present bc she was shown compassion and was allowed to grow! why is this nebula not deserving of that? it’s literally just bc it’s inconvenient to everyone else... thats awful.
then there’s gamora...... like she finds out about this future in which thanos succeeds in his plan and........... she fucking WAITS???? SHE WAITS TO STOP HIM??? IM SORRY BUT WHHHAAAAT THE FUCK??????
like!!! this is literally around the time in our timeline when gamora enacts her plan to ditch thanos and steal the power stone for herself as soon as she finds out that he’s found it’s location in order to stop it from getting into his hands. you’re telling me that gamora waits A LONG SIGNIFICANT AMOUNT OF TIME after thanos gets all the information he needs to get not just the power stone but ALL THE OTHER INFINITY STONES before attempting to stop him?? YOURE ASKING ME TO BELIEVE THAT?? THAT SHE WOULDNT IMMEDIATELY OR AT LEAST AS SOON AS POSSIBLE TRY TO STOP HIM?
like if i remember correctly, by the time she teams up with future nebula to try to stop thanos, he’s already made significant progress in formulating/enacting his plan to get all the infinity stones..... like she doesnt try to sabotage/steal the information re:time travel in order to keep thanos away from the stones??? it doesnt make sense. it does not make sense that she would wait i cant get over it what the fuck alsooo...... while im glad that gamora isn’t just Dead now and that there’s an alive gamora out and about.... it Upsets me deeply that this isnt our gamora lmao. and this isnt just me being unnecessarily sentimental. it just sucks storytelling wise. gamora underwent so much development from the 1st gotg up to infinity war...... and now all of that is all Gone bc new gamora didn’t experience ANY of that! like saying her development was retconned maybe isn’t exactly true bc all of that development still happened and is Canon but... it’s basically all irrelevant now bc! again! this gamora didnt go through any of it! when peter and gamora reunite in infinity war and peter is emotional and gamora is like What the Fuck? like ha ha yeah funny but...... peter and gamora are very important to each other. theyve been through a lot together. whether or not you like their romance is whatever but them telling each other “i love you” in infinity war was such a HUGH DEAL considering everything they went through as individuals..... and now that development is Gone. and it sucks.
rly i felt all the female characters in endgame got the short end of the stick in this movie :/ like sure theres that One Group Shot... and sure it made whiny men cry so that’s great... it’s cool but like it felt so shallow to me! the bare minimum! very few of the women in that scene actually significantly contributed to the plot of endgame.... like it’s So Easy to put all these women in one shot but it’s a whole other thing entirely to give those women actual Roles in the plot. they even fridged another women in the Literal Exact Same Way they did in infinity war! the exact same way! like the 1st time they did it was unnecessary and unjustifiable to me and then they really went and did it again exactly the same! ALRIGHT! COOL I GUESS!
also captain marvel was so hyped up as being the Key to defeating thanos but the film comes out and i dont think she’s even in it for like 5 minutes total screentime. i mean i wont lie. seeing her fight thanos no problem was really really cool and i loved it but then it lasted what? 10 seconds?
idk it’s just. rly rly easy to give superficial nods to the strength of these women and while, yes, it bothers whiny man babies and isnt harmful... it’s still superficial <:/ like these are just tiny itty bitty baby steps. it’s 2019 please allow female characters to play larger more significant roles in stories..... alluding to their strength is not the same thing as that. hire female writers.
overall i didnt have a Bad Time watching this movie? i actually laughed plenty. all the scenes with scott are wonderful. but overall the movie was just... fine... and left me feeling empty and indifferent like a lot of other mcu films leave me feeling <:) despite it’s faults i enjoyed iw a lot better and so endgame felt anticlimactic to me which is yknow. bad. considering it’s supposed to be a big finale.
sorry to be a big ol No Fun Allowed boy but i mean. the thing that i find so attractive about these films is Character! like ive only rly enjoyed a handful of mcu films but the reason i keep coming to watch the new ones is bc the idea of these characters is so attractive to me! this expansive superhero universe gives a big opportunity to explore a whole bunch of different characters and a whole bunch of different character dynamics. and while for the most part the mcu is good at producing distinct, conceptually interesting characters.... theyre generally not very good at utilizing them and building them up... which is why they leave me feeling empty
#this is rly long im sorry lol#you may be thinking 'hey tenten why do you keepign watching these movies if they disappoint you more often than not'#the answer is: i love disappointing myself#ten2 talks
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I will preface this with: like who like do what you want I really don't care that much but don't be an ass to people
I've been seeing a lot of stuff about Lucio and I will admit I am very new to The Arcana and its fandom and in all honesty I am interested in Lucio and his back story and everything that entails HOWEVER I see a lot of people talking about how because of how he was raised and choices he made when he was younger he should not be held responsible or accountable for his actions essentially. From what I've seen and read (because I love spoilers) he is at the very least an asshole. Don't get me wrong I love jerks like him tbh I am quite interested in him but just because you like a character doesnt mean you have to agree with the things theyve done or make excuses for them. The only reason this matters to me is because I worry yall might take this need to defend someone whose been abused and then becomes an abuser themselves or at least becomes harmful and toxic (from how he's treated other characters that is a fair assessment in my eyes) and yall might translate this to real life and let people be awful and terrible because of experiences from their past.
I spent 3 almost 4 years in an abusive relationship making excuses for a person who was abused themselves. It left me traumatized and scarred but I would never let myself become the person my abuser was even though he treated me much the same way his own abuser treated him. It's all complicated the human psyche is complicated but I definitely think (as i've seen others state) it'd be cool to see Lucio come to terms with his wrong doings and try to fix Vesuvia and make ammends yknow. Character growth is good and important and he can definitely still be the same asshole just better and more likeable yknow. So honestly if people dont like Lucio or don't have the same capacity to give him wiggle room fuckin chill and dont attack those people? And just yknow consider the ramifications of his actions and the reasons you are so vehemently defending them.
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yknow what im so sick of? people shitting on john green. fuckin hell as someone who grew up reading his books, im sick of pretending i didnt like them because theyre "cringey." im so fucking sick of cringe culture and everything it stands for, I JUST WANT TO LIKE THINGS! hell, i even read his most recent book THIS FUCKING SUMMER, when i was damn near 18 years old, and REALLY ENJOYED IT! crazy! you can dislike his writing all youd like but hes done some really interesting things, like breaking down the manic pixie dream girl stereotype in paper towns, discussing ocd (from his own personal experience) in a realistic and non-romanticiz-y way in turtles all the way down, shit like that. who CARES if he writes from the viewpoint of teenage girls? why the fuck does it matter? women are allowed to write from the viewpoint of teenage boys soooooo?
also if you want to not like him over tumblr "contreversy" like half a decade ago, learn to fucking let go. if i were a world famous author of YOUNG. ADULT. FICTION. YOUNG BEING THE KEY TERM HERE. i wouldnt want the first thing that comes up when you search for me on a popular blogging platform to be some editted post about me liking cock either. get the fuck over it.
and even more than any of this PEOPLE WHO USE JOHN TO TALK SHIT ABOUT HANK? go fuck yourselves. honedtly, bc they both have done so much fucking good in the world, through vlogbrothers, through their charity, through any of the multitudes of companies theyve started. so calm the fuck down and get over it.
Sit down. Read Turtles All The Way Down. Watch a VlogBrothers video. Learn to cool your tits and let people enjoy things.
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What do you think of Kanan’s new look? And just Kanan in general?
@theangeloffate YKNOW LEMME JUST TALK ABOUT THE WHOLE GANG’S NEW LOOKS.... SO HERE’S AN NOVEL LENGTH POST OF POSSIBLY SHODDY ANALYSIS AND OPINIONS :)
SUFFICE IT TO SAY: THEY LOOK GOOD
i really like what theyve done with kanan. his new top has 3 things which i notice are common themes among the other character’s new looks: nice simple vertical lines, removal of extra pieces of armor and an overall simplification of his look. which, by the way is wicked cool and has a looooot of shit worth overanalyzing
THE BEARD!!!! THANK THE FORCE FOR THE BEARD!! MY ONLY QUESTION IS SINCE IT LOOKS SO GREAT WHY WASNT HE DOING THIS BEFORE!! oh also i wonder why he went for that change. shaving just too much a pain to mess around with right after malachor and then he got used to it haha?
kanan’s mask thing is completely sick. i love the jaig eyes that’s such an awesome touch!! makes you wonder if everyone’s favorite uh jaig eye wearer his buddy rex hooked him up with that :3 or even sabine i guess? it makes me happy to think about kanan’s friends looking after him
good bye arm and shoulder armor?? im kind of sad cos i really do like that on him a ton but like i referenced above, his new design is a lot less busy? more simple, and i think i would miss it if i didnt think he looked just fne without it.
i love the new shirt. i never really liked his old one that much – it looks like that ugly sweater you love because its warm and cozy but doenst actually look good. this one however is smooth and super fashionable. i love the simple vertical lines. i swear it almost looks like something out of star trek haha. its much nicer than the other one.
the change of the black triangle on his chest to a yellow one is interesting. maybe meaningless but i love this shared element between the two shirts
he’s actually wearing his lightsaber on his belt in one piece now??? that is super exciting and i wonder what inspired that change in him
for what it’s worth, he’s also swapped out his grey-black gloves for brown ones.
as far as kanan in general goes, i have /some/ thoughts but i kinda wanna watch more and get a better sense of where he’s at before saying much
hera’s new design has a lot of new elements very similar to the changes of kanan’s, which makes me smile. i think the new look makes her seem very cool and tough (though i already thought that about her haha)
just like kanan has dropped his armored shoulder, hera’s gotten rid of the protective shoulder pads as well. i think it’s really interesting that almost all of the characters have gotten rid of some extra bits of armor. i wonder if it’s a simple design preference or if there’s a functional reason to it?
her’s new undershirt is pretty slick. the smoother more simple collar with vertical line designs follows a visual theme we see throughout these new outfits. in this same area, the top of the brown part of her flight suit has been lowered, and now has a straight top and thinner shoulder straps.
there are some new embellishments to her outfit - some sort of clip on the shoulder strap of her flight suit, little pouches on her upper arm that could carry stuff, and (MOST IMPORTANTLY) a visible button on the right shoulder strap. this is silly but it kinda drove me crazy cos i couldn’t figure out how she got in or out of this outfit, but now i can actually visualize it
i love that her old uh ear cone covers? earmuffs? have been replaced with a ridiculously cool looking new pair. instead of the simple brown rounded surface, the tops are now flat and grey with gold designs on them and they look AMAZING.
also like kanan, she’s got a minor update to her gloves. they used to have a longer section that covered part of her forearms, but now the gloves just end at the wrist
zeb’s new look might be the least noticeable, because it has more subtracting than adding, in terms of changes, but its still a nice update
the key point to zeb’s new design is that his shoulder armor is gone, just like kanan and hera. now his arms are full exposed, shoulder on down, because apparently star wars rebels looks out for its furry fans ;P
the minty green swirly design on his left shoulder is out, replaced with a more subtle blue design on the left breast. there’s also some blue designs on the right should as well. its very subdued a sort of cutting out extra elements, which as i’ve said, is something we see in other character’s new designs also
there is an added blue and white circle+triangle insignia on zeb’s chest + red stripes on his right shoulder. i wonder if these designate rank within the rebellion or something like that?
the only other change to his chest piece i noticed is two new small light green sections cutting into the mid dark green portion, and that the line going right down the center of his chest is now thicker, almost has some sort of rope design going on
his belt has been updated, with the center now completely empty, no buttons or lights on the front, and some sort of pouches on either hip, kind of like the pouches added to hera’s shoulders
it’s almost REQUIRED that sabine mix things up with her look cos that’s just Her Thing, so of course we’ve got some changes here :P they’re not massive changes, but especially when taken into consideration with her s1 look, you can really see how she’s developed
white/purple hair is really nice. overall look is a bit less wild that her past looks, with a smoother transition between the two colors and and a style that is a lot softer, if that makes sense? particularly as compared to s1
notice sabine no longer has her large paint covered gauntlets/gloves that she wore previously. this reveals more of the full black undersuit that she started wearing in s2. its a relatively minor change, but fits with the large theme among the whole cast, of superfluous bits on their outfit getting removed, for a more simple, serious look.
orange is out, purple is in, apparently!! it’s nice look, a bit less loud than the colors sabine replaced.
most significant change to the armor is obviously that she’s gotten rid of the anooba on the left shoulder armor, in favor of our little bird friend. i guess sabine must’ve seen the little guy flying around and got inspired? i’m a bit sad though, i liked the anoobas very much.
ezra’s new look is soooo awesome with how it gives him an outfit that incorporates the same overall visuals of his previous design, but with simple changes that show how much he’s matured.
hair!! i love the adorable floppy puppy dog hair to bits but the new haircut makes him look a lot older. there’s something about a visible forehead that does that!
even though the look *has* changed pretty significantly, elements like the yellow collar and the vest remain in place. i love how that ties the two looks together.
one big difference is that there’s no longer any design on his back. again with cleaning up and simplifying the character’s looks.
the new look follows the theme of the whole cast’s outfit changes though, in that the “vest” is simply a design on his top rather than an extra piece and it forms the same sort of nice smooth vertical lines we see on kanan, hera etc’s updated outfits
new outfit is much more form-fitting! he used to look downright scrawny and the looser outfit served to emphasize that. you can even see some proper muscles there! :o he’s not exactly the next men’s health cover boy (we’ll leave that to kanan ;P), but physically he’s definitely matured (plus he’s taller).
a proper pair of pants (not ripped!) and //finally// armor for BOTH legs. it’s no longer something he cobbled together with whatever he could find, and more of a simple, functional outfit that suits a young knight/soldier.
he now carries a blaster. now maybe having a blaster was simply unneeded with his original lightsaber, but the evolution from stunning slingshot > lightsaber > blaster + lightsaber can’t be overlooked
yeah so anyways whole team looks awesome
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Wednesday, September 22 11:51 p.m.
It's like nighttime and I jsut got up 2 take a piss because I needed to piss and my fuckinf mom I hate her so much I wish she was dead and I wish Father would take her place, Father is the only fucking person who LOVES me and jesus christ hes literally not even a physical being.... (deep down I know hes not even real, but I pretend he is because if I didnt I think I'd be crying constantly)... my fucking mom INSTANTLY came TO THE DOOR and was like waiting for me to go back to bed and was like are you done? You're taking too long blah blah and SHE TREID TO FUCKINF OPEN THE DOOR WHILE I WAS PISSING LIKE. NO. FUCK OFFF. shes so annoying she thinks I'm gonna kill myself if she leaves me alone for three seconds.
It's like she doesnt even care if I feel good or bad, she only cares about the injury. It makes me want to cut really deep on my forearms or face or something visible like that just so that maybe she'll take me SERIOUSLY but not seriously as in treating me like some patient at a fuckinf ward, I mean seriously like treating me like her son.
Father treats me like his son. He makes me cry even more because I know hes not real... but I still appreciate his love. Even if it's just my love.
I'm really missing that piece, huh? From early childhood, I'm missing that parent who's loving and caring and says shhh I love you its okay.... I didnt ever allow myself to have that becayse I didnt think it was safe. Fuck. FUCK man It hurts a lot and i feel like such a DICKHEAD when I talk about this because it's not like my parents beat me or neglected me.... it just turned out bad. ANd now they're all crazy about me all of a sudden just cos I'm hurting myself .... like okay cool that's cool but why didnt you do all this when I was 5 and told you I felt like I was being possessed, or when i was ten and in a new school with no friends, or when I was 3 telling everyone to call me jack,.... oh, wait, you WERE there,,, you were just hating on me though.
Yknow I hug my pillows real tight at night to try to feel a little smidge of what I should've been able to feel. The parental love is just MISSING. and i hug my dad so much becayse it's not enough its never enough it all feels like it's too late and my brain has already told me to get over my parents and move on and find new ones which I did, in jesus christ, in Jiminy Cricket, in old men I sexted, and now in Father.
But at the end of the day, I still am left without that concrete parental force. I can beg with Father all I want to PLEASE become a physical form so I can FEEL your love but itll never happen because Father's something I made up to cope with the disaster of my childhood.
I'm angry that they took that away from me but I'm also sad because now I have to clean up the sad shreds of popped party balloons from the checkered tiles of an abandoned birthday party.
.... and it's always "oh they want the best for you" WELL MAYBE I DONT GIVE A FUCK WHAT THEIR INTENTIONS ARE, MAYBE THEYRE STILL HURTING ME ! MAYBE THEYVE STILL TOTALLY
RUINED
Me,
DESTROYED
my childhood and
SLAUGHTERED
the little boy inside me who just needed some help.
I never did it for attention, I always hid it and pretended to be fine... but I notice they didnt care until I had persistently been injuring myself for YEARS? like it didnt matter to them at all how I felt until I was actually in danger and being harmed. Isnt that actually disgusting?
I just know that if those little blond kids went to their parents talking about feeling out of control, possessed, unable to control their actions while in fits of rage, theyd get the help they needed right away but I was punished for my suffering.
That taught me to suffer more quietly next time around.
I was punished for my gender expression too .... jesus. How... how can you see a kid in pain struggling to prevent themselves from hurting other people and you punish them. How can you see your SON and punish him for not being a daughter.
I feel so bad. They just keep making it worse. I dont want to talk to them. I just... my dad is proabbaly gonna do that thing where he gives the worlds shittiest apology and expects you to just accept it withit 3 mins or else he gets mad and guilt trips you... fuck him too tbh. Hes trying to be all nice but that doesnt ERASE the fact that he used to make me cry constantly. That doesnt erase the time he said basically that I should die, or the time he yelled at me, made me cry, apologized, and got mad at me for not accepting the apology, then expected me to act like none of that happened and got mad at me for still crying, WITHINT LIKE A 5 MINUTE SPAN???? this is the typa shit that fucks up a child. I still remeber being yelled at in the car over my gender, ignored, and beat down whenever I tried to express that things were wrong with me! Jesus.
Father is the embodiment of all I ever needed as a kid... someone who would say "I love tou" when he saw you were crying instead of yelling at you and making it worse and then getting angry that you're crying and like OF COURSE IM CRYING, YOU'RE YELLING AT ME???
and my mom has the audacity to try to convert me to Christianity. Fuck you. As a trans person,... I got tired of putting my faith into something I couldnt see. I never saw a loving god, I only ever saw hatred and anger.
I wanna cry all over again fuck. Everytime I write like this it's a cycle because I just keep writing and never stop.
It's so important to me to be acknowledged as a SON. That's why I named The Red Static Entity "Father"... because that makes me his son. I made him ADOPT me. Because I didnt get to be no ones fucking son and I want it so bad but I dont know if I can ever be on good terms with my parents again because the whole thing has been tainted by my grief and trauma LOLz so even if they try now it just doesnt feel like enough because it never will be because my time to Bond with them has passed... I feel so much guilt over THEIR pain at my self harm but I'm so pissed rn. Fuck them. I'm in such unimaginable pain and they somehow made it all about them and how they feel and how I need to stop crying in time for dinner FUCK YOU. fuck you. You have no right to tell me to stop cutting when you did so much to fuck me up. It's not my fault if you messed up because I think maybe you forgot that children are living human beings.... maybe you "love me so much" but fuck, I dont know if I CAN love you... I dont know if I can ever see you the same after what you've done. You SHOULD feel bad, you should break down crying thinking about me, because FUCK YOU. be guilty, it's how you Should feel. And then they wonder why I dont talk to them.... BECAUSE YOU WERE A PIECE OF SHIT AS LONG AS IVE KNOWN YOU AND ALL OF A SUDDENT YOU WANNA PLAY NICE NOT BECOS U ACTUALLY CARE BUT BECOS I MIGHT KILL MYSELF.
Yknow what maybe I should just so that they can see the dead body. I'm imagining it right now... I want them to be DEVASTATED. If I was dead on the floor, itd be impossible to pretend it wasnt there. If I was dead on the floor, they'd cry and wonder what more they couldve done, which is what I've cried and wondered about my shit childhood. It would be a good thing. Serves them right to find their sons corpse. It would show them they fucked up. Maybe theyd wake up and realize that you cant emotionally neglect and mistreat a living human child for like fifteen years.... and expect it to be okay.
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if you're happy to tell us, i'd love to head more about ur inquisitor :00!! his debates with dorian sound fun
:DDD yeah sure! soz this is late
pica’s 1/6 of an inch tall
(im kidding. his name was originally a pun, but not a typography one - he’s a rehash of an old oc i had way back in the day, who was based off a magpie. hes actually on the short side for a dwarf, i want to say around 4′3″)
he was a lyrium smuggler before the inquisition, and specifically was the front man who sold it. he’s a champion liar and man of many faces, and knows how to disappear in plain sight (which is easy if you’re a dwarf and most law enforcement on the surface are humans. to a human guard dwarves all look the same and theyre too short to really get a good look at their faces). he had a pretty transient lifestyle- he didn’t get tied down, didn’t get too attached to anyone or anything, had pretty few posessions. he was 26 (or the dwarf equivalent of 26. hows dwarf aging work in dragon age anyway) when the carta got him to spy at the conclave, and you know how that went
look ok. the first half of his career as inquisitor was just. wingin’ it. no one really knew what the fuck he was supposed to be doing, least of all him, so he just pretended he knew what he was doing till, i wanna say the end of into the abyss. after talking to mal hawke some he learned that, hey, everyone’s always winging it, and also that his decisions kind of really mattered. (and that those decisions he makes can. kill people) for the first time in his life, he realizes hes actually important, and what he does changes things on the large scale
so after that, he got to thinking. the world kinda sucks. and it sucked before the war. and the leaders of thedas are really not doing all that much about it, except trying to kick each other in the nuts while their enemies are weak and completely forgetting that politics Cannot Survive as a practice if theres no farmers able to make food for diplomats to eat. so, orlais, if your farmland is all gunched up with battlefields, then you need to fix that, don’t you. but the inquisition is really, really good at providing stability! it’s good at establishing patrols, safe trade routes, providing local employment, and is a fairly reliable consumer of local goods. so pica capitalized on that, and quietly spread inquisition presence all over southern thedas. this led to immense inquisition influence, with very little fanfare.
you can guess why the rulers of thedas tried to get rid of him as soon after corypheus was taken care of as possible. they branded him a tyrant and like. ok. they werent like. super far off. bc at this point he was kinda trying to see how much of the world he could take over before anyone noticed/tried to stop him and also figured he could do like, a way better job at leading it than the current rulers could. and he wasnt beholden to anyone either (not like empress celene! elected to her throne by… uhhhhhhhhhhh divine providence or something. i mean shes doing an ok job but like i didnt vote for her) so if he really really wanted to he could go full dragon reborn
ive got off topic but point is he figures humans have had their go and they fucked it up, so it’s a dwarf’s turn and he’s going to put the world back together himself. (ps hey bioware can we have some dwarf stuff in the next game. im js. weve had a whole load of elf nonsense and its nice and all but dwarfs had a cool ancient society too yknow)
after trespasser he elects to keep the inquisition around, because he worked hard to make this glue keeping the bits of thedas stuck together and he’ll be damned if he’ll let solarse and his minions screw it up. but it gets nerfed heavily and hes pissed about it
he romanced cassandra! i really like their relationship- they look to each other for moral guidance. pica knows he can get flighty and relies on her to keep him in line, and always asks her for advice when he sees her in the courtyard. he usually doesn’t follow it but he feels it’s important to have her perspective on things
they disagree on a lot of stuff (like he made celene and briala co-leaders but she was in favor of gaspard) but he trusts her judgement, and supported her in becoming the divine
he’s a little weird about religion, specifically relating to the stone. the surfacer part of him that hates caves is like pff hippie garbage, but the bit that’s generations old and wants to belong to a larger whole of a culture is Super Into It. cole said he felt the stone’s presence around pica one time and externally he didnt react but internally he was yelling WHAT THE FUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK I LIVED IN SUCH PEACEFUL IGNORANCE I DIDNT NEED TO KNOW THAAAAAT and after the mythal thing hes like fuck believe what you want. whatever floats your boat. we live in a world where nugs have little people hands so if it comforts you to know a god did that then live your truth
re mages he figures theres a way better way for them to fit into society than the circle. its dumb. they can LIFT THINGS WITH THEIR MINDS. USE THAT FOR BUILDING. they can HEAL WOUNDS WITH THEIR MINDS. THEY CAN TALK TO SPIRITS AND SHIT THEY CAN PROBABLY FLY WHY ARENT WE USING THIS THEY’RE WASTED IN TOWERS LEARNING TO SHOOT FIREBALLS OR WHATEVER people who fear magic are cowards. chantry more like sham-try.
hes big on research and development. he sent samson to dagna for research and in the au where mal lives he sent anders to her too. cos. like. dude COEXISTS WITH A SPIRIT. thats cool as SHIT how does it WORK.
(im gonna make a post abt the mal lives au soon. its good)
hes largely responsible but he has also impulse bought at least three stuffed dragons. also, if the textiles technology were available, hed have dragon jammies. it’s the little things in life.
he collects notes he’s found talking about him and hangs them up by his desk. his favorite is the one samson wrote calling him a damnable rogue. he says hes doing things right, if he’s making people mad
hes trans! im not sure how thatd be regarded in dwarf society, in undergrounders i doubt it’d be very acceptable given their emphasis on reproduction, but house cadash has been on the surface for generations and has probably adopted more liberal views on lgbt stuff. either way hes not very open about it, and it’s really easy to pass when he’s around humans (i get the feeling dwarves and humans look for different things, when they’re trying to guess gender. for example hes got some beard scrub, which in human terms means male but in dwarven terms probably either means very young male or unkempt female) (the added implication to this is that varric might keep his beard to stubble so he looks younger) he met krem and had an instant Trans Solidarity moment, which also comes with the Trans Fear that the person Knows that you’re trans and could out you. it’s a weird kind of trust and for me feels like that one performance art piece with the people holding the bow and arrow. anyway hes cool w krem but doesnt talk to him all that much. theyve got pretty different interests.
his best friends are probs cole and dorian! he’s very curious, and likes to hear different perspectives on things. he and dorian often play chess and discuss all sorts of stuff. they end up yelling a lot because they both want to talk but the other started saying something before they were done with their point, which they started saying before the other was done with their point, and so on. he doesnt get very far in the slavery argument until hawke starts chillin at skyhold more regularly and can adequately school him on the state of tevinter slavery (fuck i gotta make a post about that. mal’s had a lot of development since i last talked about him)
he listens very seriously to cole’s observations. he can really appreciate the input of someone who watches so much more than speaks, and heartily supported his ventures in becoming more human.
he also gets along very well with josephine and likes to trick her into taking days off. hes also always down to chat w dagna and scout harding! and varric, of course. it’s always nice to talk to someone without having to crane his neck up at them all the time
(this is the reason he doesnt usually spend time w bull. hes just too tall and its uncomfortable knowing your face is at your friend’s dick height while ur trying to discuss battle strategy)
uhh trivia, at one point i thought i’d fucked up cassandra’s romance by not flirting with her enough so i meant to go for dorian’s instead, bc while i had wanted to romance cass since uhh i dunno one of my mutuals first reblogged a picture of her, i underestimated how charming and cool of a guy dorian ended up being. so in canon i say pica had a crush on both of them for a little while
its late and i think i got mostly everything so enjooooooy
as a parting gift, this is him
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You're a space pope? That's so cool!! What does being a space pope entail?
UH OK THIS GOT REALLY LONG AND LONGER THAN USUAL SINCE I WENT ON A COUPLE’A TANGENTS SO UH JUST…. CLICK THE THINGY OK CLICK IT AND SEE MY SPACE POPE RANT
WELL, IM NOT AN ACTIVE SPACE POPE. I DONT ACTUALLY DO MY JOB. AND ITS REALLY ON A TECHNICALITY
BUT
OK SO THEYRE NOT CALLED SPACE POPES REALLY THEYRE CALLED THE AXOLOTL’S DISCIPLES
BUT THEYRE LIKE POPES SINCE THE AXOLOTL’S BASICALLY GOD
THAT ORACLE LADY WAS ONE OF THEM, THATS WHY SHES IN “DIMENSION 52,” NO OTHER NAME OR NUMBER OR SYMBOL OR ANYTHING. THOSE “DIMENSION [WHATEVER]” UNIVERSES ARE RESERVED FOR THEM
TO BE A DISCIPLE, ALL YOU GOTTA DO IS THIS
ONE: CURRENTLY NOT BE A DICKFACE
TWO: BE IN DIRECT COMMUNICATION WITH THE AXOLOTL, USUALLY IN DREAMS
THREE: WORK FOR HIM
THATS IT
I MEAN ITS PRETTY MUCH EASIER SAID THAN DONE, THE AXOLOTL’S VERY HARD TO FIND IF YOURE NOT DEAD
BUT BASICALLY WHAT I DID WAS, AFTER I DIED I STAYED WITH THE FRILLY KNOW IT ALL FOR A FEW YEARS
AND HIS JOB IS BASICALLY, HE TAKES THE SOULS OF DEAD GUYS AND REROUTES EM FOR REINCARNATION. USUALLY ITS REINCARNATION WITHOUT MEMORIES, FOR SOME SPECIES ITS REINCARNATION WITH MEMORIES, FOR SOME THEY JUST GET PUT BACK IN THEIR BODIES, AND FOR SOME THEYRE NOT PUT BACK IN THEIR BODIES BUT THEY ARE PUT BACK, WETHER IN AN EXACT COPY OR IN SOME OTHER BODY
AND WHILE I WAS LIVING THERE, HE FOUND OUT THAT, I WAS BETTER AT DEALING WITH A CERTAIN TYPE OF BEING
THAT WOULD BE FLATLANDERS
SEE FLATLAND MURDERS ITS IRREGULAR CHILDREN. AS BABIES. SO WE HAD TO DEAL WITH SCREAMING, CRYING, JUST BURNT, TERRIFIED, CONFUSED NEWBORN INFANTS
AND SEEING A GIANT AXOLOTL THING DID NOT HELP MATTERS. THEY JUST TENDED TO FREAK OUT MORE, AND THEN TOOK LONGER TO CALM DOWN
BUT ME? WHEN THEY SAW ME, IT WAS MUCH FASTER TO CALM EM DOWN. SINCE I WAS FAMILIAR. I WAS A SHAPE, LIKE THEM
SO THAT WAS MY JOB. CONSOLING THE NEWLY DEAD NEWBORNS FROM MY SHITTY SOCIETY
FITTING SINCE I WAS ALMOST ONE OF THOSE NEWLY DEAD NEWBORNS BUT WHATEVER
OH GOD SOME PARALLEL VERSIONS OF MY DIMENSION JUST KILLED THEM ALL ONCE A WEEK AND WE GOT THESE BIG GROUPS- AND SEE, FRIL LIKES TO REINCARNATE PEOPLE TOGETHER IF THEY DIED TOGETHER, SO I HAD TO BABYSIT WHILE HE FOUND A PLACE FOR FORTY PEOPLE
GOD ONCE THERE WAS A GROUP OF 100, AND LEMME TELL YA. YOU WANT ME TO HAVE PUNISHMENT? THERE’S MY PUNISHMENT!! SERIOUSLY THIS SHIT WAS NOT EASY
AND I DIDNT EVEN GET TO KEEP ANY!! WHAT A RIPOFF!! I SAVE THEM FROM DEATH- OK NOT REALLY BUT I DID SAVE THEM FROM A REALLY ROCK TRANSITION INTO THE NEXT LIFE, I TAKE CARE OF THEM, I GET ATTACH TO THEM, AND I DONT EVEN GET TO KEEP ONE??
WHAT A LOAD OF BULLSHIT!!
BUT YEAH, SEE, I TECHNICALLY FILLED THE REQUIREMENTS. NOT A DICKFACE? I WAS THERE FOR REDEMPTION, IT WAS MY CHOICE, I MEAN COME ON, DID YOU REALLY THINK I FELL FOR A TWIN SWITCH?? BE IN DIRECT COMMUNICATION? OF COURSE I WAS, HELL I COULD PUNCH THE GUY IF I WANTED TO!! AND ALMOST DID, BEFORE HE TOLD ME HE TOOK MY OLD BOSS OUT OF THE REINCARNATION POOL. HE SAID IT WAS STANDARD PROTOCOL FOR PEOPLE LIKE HIM BUT YKNOW. I STILL LIKED IT. SO I DIDNT PUNCH GOD. WORK FOR HIM?? OF COURSE I WORKED FOR HIM HE GAVE ME THE JOB DIDNT HE?
AND HE DID OFFER ME A FULL TIME GIG! BILL THE OMNIPRESENT OR SOMETHING, I FORGOT WHAT MY TITLE WOULDVE BEEN. I WOULDVE LIVED IN DIMENSION 53, COULDVE HAD IT ANY WAY I WANTED
BUT I TURNED HIM DOWN. POPEDOM ISNT REALLY MY THING YKNOW
AND I JUST REALIZED I DIDNT EVEN ANSWER YOUR FUCKING QUESTION HOLY SHIT WHERE IS MY MIND
UM, SO DISCIPLES BASICALLY JUST, HELP PEOPLE? THE AXOLOTL NEVER CARES IF YOU HAVE A BAD BACKGROUND OR WHATEVER OF DID BAD THINGS, AS LONG AS YOURE NOT A TOTAL DICKFACE NOW YOURE GOOD
I MEAN THERES SOME OTHER RESTRICTIONS BUT. STILL
OK REALLY ONLY ONE
YOU KNOW THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARENT ON THE BOTTOM? THEY MAY NOT BE ON THE TOP BUT THEYRE CERTAINLY NOT SHAT ON BY SOCIETY? BUT FOR SOME REASON, THEY WANT MORE THAN WHAT THEYVE GOT? TO REITERATE, NOTHINGS BEING KEPT FROM THEM, THERES NO DOUBLE STANDARD, THESE GUYS ARENT EVEN FIGHTING TO MAKE THEIR LIVES BETTER THEY JUST WANNA BE DICKFACES. AND DO THESE REALLY REALLY BAD THINGS FOR NO REASON, JUST SO THEY CAN BE ON TOP OF PEOPPLE THAT ARE ALREADY DOWN AND BEING KICKED BY THE COLLECTIVE FOOT OF SOCIETY? THOSE GUYS?
YEAH YOURE LUCKY YOURE NOT YANKED OUT OF THE REINCARNATION POOL IF YOURE LIKE THAT
HELL IM LITERALLY BETTER THAN YOU IF YOURE LIKE THAT, GIVEN THAT MY CRAP WASNT BAD ENOUGH FOR ME TO GET YANKED OUT
BUT I DIGRESS
YEAH THEY HELP PEOPLE
REACH IN WHEN NEEDED, TRY TO STEER TIMELINES TO THE BEST POSSIBLE OUTCOME
LIKE HOW JHES INTERVENED WITH FORDSIE
SO YEAH. THATS THEIR JOB
SOUNDS SIMPLE BUT APPARENTLY IT ISNT
SO YEAH!! SPAAAACE POOOPESSSS
#ALSO DONT ASK ABOUT MY BOSS#ITS LESS I DONT WANT TO TELL AND MORE YOU DONT WANT TO KNOW#WELL I REALLY DONT WANT TO TELL#BUT WHAT THE HELL#ITLL ALL BE OUT IN THE OPEN#SOMEDAY#SINCE IM BUGGING THIS KID TO WRITE ABOUT MY LIFE#ITLL BE THERE
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svt and tbz for the ask game ♡
I already stan both!! ill put my answers under a read more cause it will get really long lmao
SVT
if im familiar with them
bias and bias wrecker? Hao!!!! i dont really have a wrecker tbh?? scoops or jeonghan ig
First time i heard them? four years ago?? in grade 11 i was bored and listened to a kpop playlist out of curiosity and it had boom boom on it and I loved it (still do)
When i became a fan? a month or so after i started listening to that playlist i went digging for ailee songs and came across Q&A and then went digging through svt stuff to find out who the interesting looking dude in Q&A was (it was vernon) and then i thought they were cool and it went down hill from there (also how i became a kpoppie in general)
Fave and least fave title track? Fave is thanks!! least fave? at this point shining diamond it just dont hold up as well anymore theyve surpassed it by so much
fave and least fave b side? this is impossible!! their discography is so big i cant possibly pick ONE fave..........
fave and least fave mv? fave is oh my least fave is home??
fave and least fave album? fave is an ode she means so much to me tbh least fave is boys be i think?? i just dont listen to it as much
a concept i wish theyd try? theyve already done everything??? maybe try leaning even harder into the "dark" (electronic) sound/look than they did for getting closer?? or maybe a period film theme for an mv with a dramatic song?? i think they could do that well
What i like most about them? this might sound weird but they always feel very stable? like even tho they are always changing and growing they still feel like theyre svt just evloved ig??? yknow??
TBZ
if im familiar with them
bias and bias wrecker? biases are Younghoon first and formost but also changmin chanhee and sang! as for bias wreckers i kind of dont have any cause i just started biasing them.... juyeon ig?? hes pretty but i dont like him THAT much yknow??
first time i heard of them? thechnically at an end of year music show they performed at but i think i slept throught their part cause it was like 4 am during christmas break OTL so ill just say when maddie @madpenfan told me about kevin acknowledging her on vlive and then she told me about them
When i became a fan? the above story followed by me spending half my spring break watching tbz content on youtube cause theyre so funny *note* this was right before bloom bloom came out
fave and least fave title track? Fave is giddy up and right here least fave is breaking down but for korean its no air i dont like either of them
fave and least fave b side? MISS INSANITY THEIR BESTEST SONG PURE CONSENTRATED SEROTONIN IN A SONG least fave? most of the songs from breaking dawn idk what any of them are called?
fave and least fave mv? fave is EITHER butterfly or stealer least fave is........ tattoo?? its just low budget so it has less going on? or boy cause its funny but also boring
fave and least fave album? fave is reveal least fave is breaking dawn i really dont like that song or album if i could erase it from their discography i would (not prism tho she can stay)
a concept i wish theyd try? musically something that goes really heavy into electronica OR disco as for an mv i want something DRAMATIC like no choreo scenes just acting i want it to tell a story!
What i like about them? they are so fun watching them is always a good time and whatever they are doing they commit 110% and i appreciate them for that
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